And others…

I know you are so happy about this: I went and got fitted for a mastectomy bra or two and got a new prosthetic that won’t pop out in public!

You can all stop waiting for it to happen when we are together, now! Yay!

I am not lying when I say that I expected it to be a horrible experience. Not sure why… but I really thought it was going to be horrible. But it was the BEST bra buying experience ever. If you are in the Birmingham area and know women who need mastectomy bras, prosthetics or anything cancer related (OR you can go and get one of the really comfy mastectomy bras even if you still have both of your tata’s) I really recommend you send them to For Ladies Only in Vestavia. So wonderful.

While I was being fitted, the lady said, “Your chest wall is BEAUTIFUL!” Without fully grasping what she said, I said, “Thank you so much!” and oozed with happiness over the word beautiful. I mean, I was a nervous wreck in there. I was at least 30 years younger than everyone in the building and I had NO idea what was going on for a minute. I was also EXHAUSTED because I went straight from work (more on that later).

So I heard ‘beautiful’ and like most women, I swooned! (That is not the reason this was a great experience, but it helped)

It wasn’t until I was driving home that I really thought about that comment. “Your chest wall is beautiful! Who is your surgeon?? He did a fabulous job!” That MUST be the same as hearing, “Your implants are beautiful! Who is your surgeon?? He did a fabulous job!” Surely it is the same? I thought about it the whoooole drive home and it still made me proud. Heck yeah I have a great chest wall! And I’m going to have two fabulous reconstructed breasts next year! (I hope)

I wanted to call my surgeon and tell him all about the compliment we received… but I’ll wait til our appointment in July, I guess!

While my chest wall may be lovely, my energy levels still leave something to be desired. I pretty much have PMS every afternoon. I’m tired, sore, grumpy and have a headache every evening. If I don’t work, I try to clean up or straighten up at least one room and do a load of laundry. At about 3, I start crashing. I don’t get sleepy so I don’t nap; I just can’t, so I will rest. I will literally sit and do nothing except watch a show or two online. It doesn’t revive me, but it keeps me going and keeps the soreness and the headaches from hitting too hard.

If I DO work in the mornings (I had previously explained to my boss that my stamina was crap so I have been scheduled for morning shifts since returning to work- until this coming week) I am up at 6, at work at 7 and work until noon, roughly. When I clock out, I’m usually so exhausted that I’ll chug something with caffeine for the drive home. When I get home, I crash for about 30 minutes. There is no stopping it. Around 5pm I get my PMS symptoms. Then it’s dinner, time with Blake, bathe, bed.

I’m not sure if it is the medicine that is making me this way, but I think it must be. This is not the same as post surgery tiredness and surgery was 3 months ago.

So, I need help.

Advice, I guess.

What can I add to my diet or my day that will help me make it through the day? (besides iron and vitamin b)

I am working two afternoons next week, starting when my exhaustion hits the hardest and going until pretty late. I would normally take my medicine at 8pm, but I’m going to push it back to when I get home so that I can make the drive home without any issues (it messes with my focus on top of making me tired). I’m just really lost for what to do about it all and thought you guys might be able to help!

I have a whole list of side effects aside from the exhaustion and eye issues, so I can’t wait to go over them with my oncologist! Maybe she can start me on B12 shots or something?

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3 thoughts on “And others…

  1. I’m sorry I’ve no advice to offer BUT please check out http://myeyesareuphere.wordpress.com/, as she shares her experiences as well as recipes etc.. I know I’ve been learning a lot from her posts.. and the humor also there is always healthy!

    Ano’ai kou alahele.. May your way be blessed

      • What a lovely compliment from the both of you lovely ladies! The three things I have done that have had the best positive impact on energy were (1) regular exercise (but we all know that and you may already be doing it, (2) 1000 mcg B-12 each morning (recommended by my naturopathic oncologist), and (3) acupuncture from a licensed acupuncturist. The acupuncture has also quite significantly reduced my hot flashes, making it well worth the price. If it is cost prohibitive for you, you might check to see if you have a community acupuncture clinic in your area. But some insurances do cover acupuncture, especially if you have pain issues. (I don’t know that you do but if you, that might be an avenue for coverage.)

        Vitamin D also works for me for energy but you have more sunshine in your area so it may not be an issue. Also, if it were an issue for you, I would expect your energy to be getting better now instead of worse given that we are getting increasingly longer days.

        Finally, when I do mindfulness meditation (or any kind of daily relaxation breathing/meditation), over time I find that my energy is better.

        I’m sorry that you are feeling so tired on the meds. However, I am so thrilled about your “beautiful chest wall” and positive experience with bra fitting. One less thing to worry about! Yay!

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